I am still super keen to write some songs with you Jaws. The Falling Movement ft. The Invisible Sign?
"I have come to the conclusion/ that with time/ the more I learn/ the less I know/ so its about time I let it go
Forget about the difference/ that come/ with change/ and every discussion I make"
Its kind of ironic really, I'm listening to Imagine Dragons - It's Time, and at the same time I'm thinking about changing my style. Hair, clothes, that sort of thing. While cleaning my room, I found some loose coins and put them in a jar. I've decided I want to go shopping at the end of the year, do a big clear out of my wardrobe, and replace most of it. My dad has been bugging me for a while to chuck out some of my clothes, but I've never had anything to replace them with, so at the end of the year, after exams and school is finished, I'll have a new wardrobe for a new life outside of school. Nothing expensive, most likely op-shop stuff (I do love a good op-shop). I want a new style. No more big baggy boys t-shirts and hoodies. I'm sure my mum will be pleased with that, as will my brother (no more borrowing his clothes from his wardrobe). I've already thrown out some old shoes, and if you were to look into my rubbish bin right now, you would see several hole filled shoes, shoes that are missing their pair, sitting at the top.
This time off has given me a lot of time to think, and what I've been thinking is its time for a change. A new attitude and approach to school, work, and life. I will be honest, I have been slacking off in school, and yet somehow I'm still passing all my classes, but I want that to change. My teachers don't deserve me slacking off. With all the effort they put into teaching me, they deserve me putting effort into my school work. I don't want to just pass, I want to pass with flying colours, make my teachers proud, maybe they will know they are doing a good job, because they really are. My teachers have been so supportive and understanding over these past months, and I am extremely grateful for that. So I want to do something to show my appreciation.
I've also been thinking about what I want to get out of life. I like making people feel happy, making them feel special, but how can I do that? I have been considering mission trips, and things of that nature. I have even decided to cut all my hair off so that it can become part of a wig for a child with no hair. I have even considered shaving it off before the ball (and hey, that would be one less thing I would have to worry about), but mum doesn't think that's a good idea. I guess she wants to have some nice photo's of me from my year 13 ball.
"I don't ever want to let you down
I don't want to ever leave this town
'Cause after all
This city never sleeps at night"
- Imagine Dragons
