Valentines Day (or Singles Awareness Day as I like to call it) is coming up, and it seems everywhere I look, I get reminded about it. Something tells me that I probably be on the S.A.D end of things.. In past years it has been that way. In fact, last year was the first time I had received a valentines. It was a card (well, a pity card really) from my friend Sean about 3 days after the 14th. He wrote in it saying that he felt bad that I had never had a valentines before, and wrote a short poem about how we are just friends. It made me smile, but I did kind of hope my first would be a "real" valentines, not that I'm really one for the romantic mushy stuff, but it would still me nice. I think last year was the worst, I took Harry (my teddy, for those who dont know) with me to school so I wouldn't feel so left out, but even he had a valentines. My english teacher had her teddy, and so they sat together at the front of the class holding hands. EVEN THE TEDDY BEAR HAD A VALENTINES!!! I MEAN, COME ON!!! I also found out my (beautiful) cousin Tania, had received a rose from our friend in Auckland. I thought it was sweet, but I will be honest, I also felt pretty stink (not that I let it show). Its almost like I have some sort of guy repellent, but I know that's not 100% true (one of my friends asked me out about 20 minutes ago (Awkward is what comes to mind)). I do have a bad habit of pushing people away when they get too close. I will say I'm close to a lot of people, but I will only let them get so close. Probably the closest people to me are Katie, Tania and Dan (Oh and of course Jesus).
It actually scares me to have them that close, but something keep's tell me that that's the way it should be right now.
DFTBA
Peace!
God Bless
